Control.

It's that jabbering in your head that keeps you up at night. It's the constant thought of "What if? How? Maybe?" It's the lack of control over your emotions that can drive you crazy. I am the queen of being driven crazy by myself.

There is a looming struggle over your whole life when your mind can't seem to stop soaring 60mph. The power of thought is absolutely mind boggling. It controls so much of the every day life. The "snowball effect" tends to take place, affecting not only your life, but those around you as well.

The worst part is consciously knowing exactly all of this, and watching it all happen. Watching yourself start to go mad, start to over analyze every aspect of every moment of life. Watching the way you react towards friends, and seeing the pain on their faces. Looking in the mirror and seeing the sadness in your own eyes.

PRAISE GOD, the Lord has dominion over our thoughts. And praise the Lord, He has redeemed me of all this foolishness. I am at such peace living life with the mindset of "Let go, let flow!" Taking every moment as beautifully as I can. Treasuring company. Most of all thanking God for the blessings He has given me here on earth. I want to be appreciative and mindful of all that He has given me. I want give up the struggle and give Him the power.

PS-

Have you ever been driving in your car and thought, "HOLY CRAP I am in control of this massive piece of machinery!"