12.3.11

self discovery.

When waking up this morning, I didn't expect to grasp further knowledge of myself. Alas it happened, and I am still sorting it out in my head. It's been somewhat overwhelming and exciting. Happy and sad.

First off: I have discovered how grounded I am in my faith, and my standards. Even when I have people telling me I am strange and conservative, it never makes me want to change who I am. I can't even imagine the conviction that would come up on me if I did. God can be pretty freakin scary, and the last thing I want to do is turn away from what He and I worked so hard to engrain in my life haha.

Second off: I have discovered that I lack a LOT of self confidence. I never feel like I am good enough for a man. I feel awkward. And quarky. And that there is another girl out there WAY prettier, WAY skinnier, and MUCH more entertaining than I could ever be.

Third off: I have discovered that I am a daughter of Christ, the Christ who has made me PERFECTLY in His image. And just because I haven't been the apple of someone's eye, does not mean that I am not good enough, and that I am not awkward or quarky in a bad way. But that God is saving me, and setting me aside for something, or someone, greater.

Fourth off: I have discovered that I LOVE easy mac