You know when you have a completely open day, to do whatever you want... and you feel so - blagh - helpless - and alone? that was me this morning. honestly that has been me the last couple of days. It starts to make me cranky, and unproductive. but what's worse is that i know why i am acting a fool. i just don't feel like putting forth the effort for a possible change of feeling. PA-TH-ET-IC! I have not been spending time with God like I have needed to. Yes, i say a prayer here and there throughout the day, but I am not investing. I am not investing to the point where I know that He is all I need to be filled with joy. Today I watched a video that my friend Bethany showed me, and I was in tears (that i masterfully hid from her). The passion of this Godly woman in the video had be buckle down before God and apologize. Apologize for putting him on the back burner, and for thinking that I could take things into my own hands. That i could control life and work and romance the way I wanted to.... what - a - fool! no really! i only ended up more confused and distraught. trust me i know, i know, i know, that christ always redeems, but why i don't just follow that every day of my life, i have no idea. i can be a cotton headed ninny muggin a lot. BUT the point is, now i am on track again, haha, after two days of turmoil, i am passionate and ready for God's perfection, for God's timing, for God's love. Now I would like to take the time to throw a little thanks out there to my hips. Yes. my hips. Without them I wouldn't be able to shut my car door when my hands are completely full of groceries. without them i wouldn't be able to carry as many gallons of milk at one time at work, as i can now. without them i wouldn't be able to sing shakira.... so thank you, hips, for providing me with a life of fulfillment.
