angels, music, and irrational fears.

It's amazing how comfortability and attraction can slowly engrave itself so much into our lives that we forget where our focus needs to be. It's not that we are purposefully walking away. We may not even be walking away at all. But we are putting something into our own hands that is meant for God's. My desires can't outweigh God's decisions, if I am choosing to place Him at the focal point.

A desire of my heart that God gives me daily is friends. Old friends and New. Friends who are crazy and loud and when I have had just enough time sitting around the house, they make me get up and sing karaoke. Then I have friends who curl up on the couch with me and discuss angels, music, and irrational fears.

Recently I have learned a lot. I have learned that I am beautiful. Even when I don't have on makeup. Even when I am wearing sweat pants and my hair disguises me as a troll. Even when I am sneezing every five seconds and my eyes are glazed over (hard to believe, I know). I have learned that the words I say, often affect people much more than I would imagine. I can be very outspoken, and mostly without thought. I need to focus more on each individual and circumstance and make a quick assessment on the level of openness I am going to let my mouth have. Most importantly, I have learned that God's plans, even when they are unknown, are the plans I want my life to be centered around.

ps. WE LEAVE FOR OHIO TOMORROW MORNING!