hamburgers and higher roads.

I feel as if I am a breaker box. I have all of these switches, and in the last two weeks or so, some of them have gone from OFF to KAPOW-ON! I am learning a lot about myself. My strengths. My weaknesses. The things I thought were my strengths and I realized that I can be weak there too. But I think the biggest thing for me, is learning how I want to be seen by God. I say so often that I want to live for God, I want Him to be evident in me, but that goes deeper than my appearance to others. It goes far beyond a stranger seeing Christ in me. The root is ME seeing Christ in myself. In my thoughts. In my actions. In my heart. What are things that I need to weed out of my life to let more of God in? What are walls I need to break down or walls I need to put up to keep my focus on His desires for my life. My body is not my own. My body belongs to Christ, so how am I treating it? Do I hold it to holiness, or do I level it out with the world? I really want to push myself. I want to hold myself to standards that seem impossible, because I know I serve the one Man above the impossible. I want to challenge myself, instead of walking "free and easy down the road I go." And the more I push, the more I pursue, the easier it will get. This is definitely going to require accountability for me. I am one who is highly motivated by being in something together with another person. I go to the gym when I have someone else going with me. I am more apt to clean my bedroom when my roommate agrees to clean hers too. I am more apt to put myself on a higher road and difficult resistance with the Lord if I have people walking the same road with me. I am truly blessed to have friends in my life that help me delve into my heart. To search and know the fears, struggles, and pain I hold in my heart that I want to rid and replace with faith, victory, and peace. I have also been blessed recently with an amazing man of God in my life, who is constantly in pursuit of furthering his knowledge of the Lord. Having myself surrounded by that only pushes me further. It's such an encouragement! (smiles)

On a lighter note - I have been serving at the Local Taco and I have already been asked what my thoughts are on the BBQ taco and Buffalo Chicken taco, and I straight up lied and said that they were amazing. Now, I don't know how God feels about this one.... aha. ALSO I will eat a hamburger for $100. Gotta raise that money to go to Austin.