(bahduboom)
I have praying a lot on my growth. I know I have been saying that I am growing in the Lord, which I am! But something that has been hitting me hard is what characteristics of myself need to change. I know I struggle with self confidence, not just physically, but emotionally. This is something that has been evident my whole life. Tonight though, patience really came into light. It has been brought up a few times, when I have prayed over, that my mind needs to rest. I need to be at peace with trusting that God has everything in control. He knows the desires of my heart when it comes to my move to Oregon. He knows the questions I have, and the details, and He will sort them out. Right now though, my work is not done in Nashville. If it were, I would be in Oregon tomorrow. God is still using me as a vessel where I am at, and through the work He is going to perform through me HERE, that will be my preparation for moving to Oregon. Something else God is revealing to me everyday is that I am already created perfectly. That I have already instilled in me confidence, and patience. God is just giving me experiences to exercise what He has already placed within me.
GOODNESS! He is teaching me so much I could go on and on. Boldness. Boldness has been an exercise that I have been learning to harness. From the lady in Walmart to tonight, at Waffle House. God told Allison, my roommate, who loves Lobsters, that we needed to go to Waffle House after Church. That He had someone there for us to minister to. We rolled in, and had our server, Niki, placed on our hearts. Al felt that we needed to bring up where we came from, that He is trying to show her, or bring up to her, church. That she is being pulled back to it, and needs to hear it from complete strangers. I had God telling me that I needed to let her know that He loves her, that she is absolutely beautiful. That her hard work does not go unnoticed, and that she is a caretaker, motherly, and that all she gives to others is noticed and adored. SO aha, I toughened up and told her straight up everything that God wanted us to tell her. She smiled and said thank you. She seemed a little bewildered, but God comes out of the woodworks a lot of the time. He's a little crazy.... and I LOVE it!
I am just SO excited to grow grow grow.
PS: We went to Waffle House
and ordered zero breakfast food.
Instead we settled on hot chocolate
and chocolate pie.
