THIS HAS TO BE A SEASON OF MY LIFE I AM COMPLETELY UNFAMILIAR WITH. YET I CAN'T SEEM TO PIN POINT HOW FAR STRETCHED IT IS FROM PAST EXPERIENCES. I WILL BE MOVING AGAIN, MID AUGUST. THIS IS COMPLETELY NORMAL. SADLY. I HAVE NOW CALCULATED THAT IN THE PAST THREE YEARS I WILL HAVE MOVED SIX TIMES. DON'T DOUBT THAT I HAVE QUESTIONED SAVING UP FOR A MOBILE HOME AND MARRYING THE FIRST RED NECK ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD AND BIRTHING 50 CHILDREN ALL OF WHOM WILL BE COVERED IN FRECKLES AND MISSING TEETH. AND PLEASE KNOW THAT I AM ONE MILLION PERCENT KIDDING. IF ANYONE KNOWS ME, THE THOUGHT OF ONE CHILD GROWING INSIDE OF MY WOMB IS ENOUGH TERROR TO LAST ME A LIFETIME, LET ALONE 50 CHILDREN. NOW THAT I HAVE THOROUGHLY, AND TRADITIONALLY COMPLETELY GONE OFF COURSE ON MY SUBJECT, I WILL NOW TRY TO HOP BACK ON. LIKE I SAID, I WILL BE MOVING IN AUGUST, TO THE GREATER NASHVILLE AREA. FAR AWAY FROM SPRING HILL. PRAISES TO JESUS! THE BIGGEST KICKER IS THAT A CHILDHOOD FRIEND FROM MICHIGAN WILL BE MOVING IN WITH ME. NEVER WOULD I HAVE THOUGHT THAT THE GIRL WHO WAS MY PARTNER IN CRIME FOR CALLING THE ONLY COUNTRY RADIO STATION IN DETROIT REPEATEDLY, REQUESTING KENNY CHESNEY SONGS, WOULD BE MY ROOMMATE 10 YEARS LATER! BESIDES MOVING INTO A NEW APARTMENT, WITH A COUPLE OF BEAUTIES, MY LIFE IS PRETTY MUCH THE SAME. MANY FRIENDS HAVE MOVED TO DIFFERENT STATES, WITH FAMILY, OR TO PURSUE FURTHER EDUCATION. MANY OF MY FRIENDS ARE STILL CONTINUING SCHOOL IN NASHVILLE, AND ARE IN THEIR SENIOR YEAR, INTERNING AND WORKING. BASICALLY MY LIFE HAS BOILED DOWN TO A ROUTINE. EVERY DAY IS STABLE. PREDICTABLE. I KNOW THAT GOD IS USING THIS TIME IN MY LIFE TO REALLY SPEAK TO ME. WITH AND WITHOUT WORDS. MOSTLY HE IS GROWING MY FAITH IN MY IDENTITY. NOT JUST MENTALLY KNOWING THE VALUE HE HAS FOR MY LIFE, BUT SPIRITUALLY, WHOLE HEARTEDLY KNOWING. I AM CURIOUS TO SEE WHERE HE LEADS ME THIS NEXT YEAR. I HAVE A HUNCH THAT A LOT OF NEW FRIENDS AND ADVENTURES WILL TAKE PLACE. I AM READY TO SPREAD MY WINGS AND TOUCH THE GREAT UNKNOWN OF NASHVILLE. THOUGH THIS CITY IS RATHER SMALL, I FEEL LIKE I HAVE DEFINITELY SLACKED IN A LOT OF IT'S TREASURES. MAYBE THAT'S BECAUSE I ENJOY DOING THINGS WITH OTHERS. GOING OUT TO NEW PLACES. ROAD TRIPS. ETC. MAYBE I NEED TO EMBRACE MY OUTGOING NATURE A LITTLE MORE AND STEP OUT BY MYSELF AND GO TO PLACES UNKNOWN, WHETHER I KNOW SOMEONE THERE OR NOT. NOW. WITH ALL OF THIS TALK, DON'T THINK THAT I MY HEART OF PORTLAND HAS COMPLETELY LEFT ME. THAT WOULD BE INCORRECT. MY SOUL STILL LONGS FOR THE WEST COAST. BUT STILL, I HAVEN'T FELT THE TIMING TO BE RIGHT. I AM STILL HERE FOR A SEASON. THERE ARE STILL THINGS FOR ME TO LEARN. THERE ARE STILL LIVES HERE THAT WILL TOUCH ME. THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD IS FOR ME NOT TO TRY TO MAP OUT THE TIMING OF MY LIFE. WHERE TO GO AND WHEN. YET THE LAST THING I WOULD WANT TO DO IS TAKE LIFE INTO MY OWN HANDS, RATHER THAN GOD'S. HE HAS GIVEN ME PASSIONS AND DREAMS. I HAVE NOT GIVEN THEM TO MYSELF. WHY THEN WOULD I WANT TO DIRECT THEM, RATHER THAN THEIR OWN CREATOR. I FEEL LIKE I NEED TO STOP WRITING, AND I AM NOT GOING TO LIE, I AM TOO TERRIFIED TO RE-READ THIS. I AM SURE THAT NOTHING IS COHESIVE. WELCOME TO MY MIND WORLD. IT'S LIKE A GIANT MISH MASH OF FRUIT CAKE. WHO KNOWS WHAT YOU'RE GONNA GET. IT LOOKS SCARY YET INTRIGUING. SOME PEOPLE LOVE IT, AND SOME PEOPLE HATE IT. YET IT HAS MANAGED TO LAST FOR DECADES.
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