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I couldn’t even begin to predict the next turn my life will twist through. The mere thought of even attempting terrifies me. It would be futile. Two years ago I predicted that I would have been well adapted to life in Portland by this time. Yet, here I am, at Fido (also known as the land of beautiful people), sipping Two Leaves and a Bud tea, feeling a good 40% less attractive than everyone and anyone in the room. Some things never change. I am seated at the window bar, and peering outside I see happy couples strolling down the christmas lit street. Of course one particular couple would be half comprised of an old fling of mine. Welcome to Nashville, the city where you know at least one person every 5 sq ft. I have to say, I have been very disciplined in refraining from pursuing any males. My head and heart are set on being captured. Not capturing. Also, the word “no” has become less frightening to use when it comes to the opposite sex. I understand that it may seem like I just contradicted myself, stating that I want to be pursued and yet have become well advanced in turning men down. (smiles) Perhaps I am just picky and a goody-two-shoes. I accept this. I will admit that this time of year has made me ecstatic for friends of mine who have found their counterparts. Who are now walking hand in hand with God’s plan that they, years ago, deemed to be impossible. Witnessing the smiles on their faces with their spouses, fiance’s, boyfriends/girlfriends now, compared to their past relationships has given me abundant joy and hope. Exuberant knowledge and expectations for the “man plan” God has rooting and growing and waiting for me. I am thrilled to look back on the things I am accomplishing right now, and have overcome in the past, and observing how they prepared me for where I needed to be when I finally find my hunk of a stud. I am so appreciative to have the Lord living within me. Allowing me to have patience and perseverance as I await what life has in store for me. Waiting while continuously moving and learning, walking in my identity, and having friends and family who remind me to get back on the high horse when I fall off are all blessings that my Father has given me just because He loves me. BAM. I am one spoiled lady... who would spoil Jimmy Fallon in more ways than he could even dream of... SHOUT OUT!