IT IS RIDICULOUSLY HARD TO BE OPTIMISTIC RIGHT NOW. I AM IN THE CENTER OF A WAR. I KNOW GOD PROVIDES IN HIS TIMING. I KNOW HIM TIMING IS PERFECT. I KNOW THAT THE TRIALS I ENDURE, AND THE TESTS I PASS, ARE CHARACTER BUILDERS FOR MY FUTURE. FOR PLANS I AM UNAWARE OF AT THE MOMENT. YET I FEEL AS IF I AM STANDING ON A CLIFF, WITH OCEAN SURROUNDING ME IN ALL DIRECTIONS, AND I AM UNABLE TO SEE ANY LAND OR HELP IN THE DISTANCE. BUT WHAT I AM NOT REALIZING IS THAT I AM STANDING ON LAND. I AM STANDING ON THE ROCK. I HAVE MY FEET FIRMLY PLANTED ON THE PROTECTER AND PROVIDER OF ALL THINGS GOOD. I AM LOOKING FAR OFF INSTEAD OF LOOKING AT WHAT I AM LITERALLY BUILT ON. I KNOW THIS. NOW I WANT TO FEEL IT. COMFORT. PEACE. ASSURANCE. UNDERSTANDING. THAT IS WHAT I STRIVE TO FOCUS ON. STRIVE STRIVE STRIVE. I REALLY SHOULD WHIP OUT THE HENNA AND PLASTER IT TO MY FOREHEAD. OR THOSE ARBYS HATS THAT MIRACULOUSLY LIGHT UP OVER PEOPLE'S HEADS WHEN THEY'RE CRAVING A ROAST BEEF SANDWICH... CAN GOD PLACE THE VERSE JAMES 1:2-3 OVER EVERY PERSON'S HEAD THAT I COME IN CONTACT WITH? THAT WOULD BE HELPFUL.
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EDITH IS REVOLTING, YET AGAIN. MY FATHER FIXED THE CODES THAT CAME UP ON THE EMISSIONS TEST. AND WHEN THE CHECK ENGINE LIGHT TURN OFF THINGY IS HOOKED UP TO MY CAR, THE CODES HAVE GONE AWAY (WHICH IS GREAT!) AND IT SAYS THAT MY CAR IS IN "DIAGNOSTIC" MODE. MEANING THE COMPUTER IS RUNNING THROUGH EVERYTHING MAKING SURE THERE ARE NO FURTHER PROBLEMS. WELL HERE'S A PROBLEM. IT'S TAKING FREAKIN FOREVER, WHICH IS NOT NORMAL. I TOOK THE CAR TO A MECHANIC AND HE SAID IT WOULD BE ILLEGAL FOR THEM TO UNPLUG/RESET THE CODES IN MY CAR. CALLED TWO OTHER MECHANICS AND THEY SAID THE SAME THING. IF A FRIEND DOES THIS FOR ME, THEY SAID THAT IF THE CHECK ENGINE LIGHT STILL STAYS ON, THEN SOMETHING IS REALLY WRONG WITH THE CAR. THIS I CANNOT AFFORD. I HAVE ALREADY SUNK 180$ INTO EDITH WITHOUT EVEN PURCHASING HER YET. YES, I DO HAVE A FRIEND COMING OVER TO PERFORM THIS LITTLE TASK FOR ME. I NEED FULL PRAYERS THAT EVERYTHING WILL WORK OUT AND I WON'T BE AT SQUARE -1 WHERE I AM NOT WORKING A FULL TIME JOB THAT IS FURTHER AWAY FROM MY HOUSE WITH STRANGER HOURS THAN THE JOB I WAS AT BEFORE. OR PRAY GOD DROPS A RELIABLE CAR IN MY LAP. I OPEN TO BOTH OPTIONS. I KNOW I HAVE FAVOR. I KNOW I HAVE FAVOR.
