For some unknown reason, Portland has been a thought roaming through my head the past three weeks. I was not sure if it was my own creation, or God's will that it was in my mind. But lately I have been on the epic journey of who I was created to be. The epic journey of where God wants me to be. I have definitely felt led to move out of state, and it seems that God is calling me to Oregon. I don't know anyone there. I don't know the state. All I know is a desire to pack my bags and move.
Emanate: Where I got confirmation about my growth and move to Oregon
Tonight after service, I pretty much placed myself in the shoes of an olympic sprinter, and flew to the front of the building for prayer. I walked up to a girl named Rachel, one of the ministry leaders, and told her this: "Hi, I'm Hali. Let me explain to you what is going on in my life right now. I am on a journey of weeding out distractions in my life, so I can further my relationship and walk with God. I have been in this casual floating mode of being a Christian for years, and I have recently just had this desire to know God more. More more more more. I know that a desire of my heart is to work to make enough money to live by, but to spend the rest of my time volunteering places and just pouring out love. But I feel like I am just constantly working right now to stay a'float and am not able to pour out. I am trying to figure out where He wants me. For some reason I keep hearing Portland Oregon in my heart, it's like I am being pulled there. I don't know why. I don't know anybody there. But a side of me is wondering if it was my own thought, or if it was Gods. Okay let's pray!" Rachel prayed and prophesied, and this is what we got: "God is telling you that He wants to romance you. He is proud that you are eliminating distractions in your life, but a lot of the distraction going on are thoughts rolling around in your head. A lot of them. You have this presence on you that herds in people. Especially the needy and the hurt. You have such a spirit of openness and love and people are drawn to it. It's there for a reason. You are in a season of working a lot, and you will be in situations of financial struggle, but God is going to use those situations to surprise you and show you that He is there. That you need to TRUST in His provision. You are going to be able to grow and go so much deeper once you start getting inner healing, going on this Encounter weekend is going to completely wreck you and heal you. Doors are going to start to open once that happens. And with Portland Oregon, there is a lot of witchcraft there, and God is going to use you as a light. He is going to put you in places of hurt and destruction, and you are going to break down walls."
KRISTIN: The friend whom I explained my prayer experience to, and who opened up more doors.
I was talking to Kristin about the prayer and word I had just gotten through Rachel, and low and behold her church branch is in Portland. She has a friend who moved from Knoxville, where she went to school, to help grow the church in Portland. The fears that I had about not knowing anyone or having a connection are completely eliminated now. Also while explaining everything to Kristin, I realized that earlier in the week I was telling a friend that I felt like I needed to move for many reasons. One was to learn to TRUST and rely on God. But that I felt like I was being fed so much here, but I had no where to disperse it. That God wanted me to move to the west, not the south, because He wanted to put me as a light in a dark place where God wasn't highly prevalent... Portland, witchcraft, God using me to be a light there. HOLY MOLY.
Conclusion: I sorta freakin wanna stand on my head and shout for joy. I am SO excited to see where God leads me. I am SO excited to weed out my inner issues and get healing. I am SO excited to pursue, in full force, God's will for me and not my own.
