IT’S STRANGE HOW THE VERY THING THAT YOU DESIRE. THE VERY PERSON YOU ADMIRE. CAN SO FERVENTLY BRING YOU BACK TO REALITY. TO THE FACTS. I TEND TO LET EMOTIONS, CONFLICTS, AND QUESTIONS SIMMER TO A THICK UNBEARABLE CONSISTENCY UNTIL I FINALLY LET THEM BE REVEALED. WHEREAS IF I HAD CONFRONTED THEM, WITH SKILLFUL REFLEX, ANSWERS WOULD REVEAL THEMSELVES. ANSWERS WOULD START HEALING ME, BEFORE I BOILED OVER. IN SOME AREAS OF LIFE I AM LOOSE (NO, I WON’T BE GIVING YOU MY UNDERWEAR TO CHARGE A DOLLAR PER VIEWING TO FRESHMEN BOYS), AND IN OTHERS I AM TIMID. CAUTIOUS. FULLY AWARE OF EVERY ANGLE AND SCENARIO THAT COULD TAKE PLACE, BEFORE I MOVE AN INCH. I FEEL AS IF GOD CONCOCTED ME INTO A BIPOLAR POTION, HAZARDOUS TO MYSELF. -SINCERELY, THE DEEP SIDE OF HALI.
IT HAS BEEN BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION, BY EVERY COFFEE SHOP WITHIN A 100 MILE RADIUS OF NASHVILLE, THAT FLIES LOVE ME. THEY ARE PERSISTENT ON TAKING .03 SECOND NAPS ON MY ARMS, MY COMPUTER SCREEN, AND SO HELP ME GOD - THE RIM OF MY TEA MUG. THESE SAID COFFEE SHOPS HAVE ALSO BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION HOW UTTERLY HYSTERICAL I LOOK AS I SWAT THE MILLION EYED CREATURES AWAY FROM ME, WITH EFFERVESCENCE, FOR LONG PERIODS OF TIME. MOMENTS OF HYSTERIA BECOMING EVEN MORE PROMINENT WHEN I END UP HITTING MYSELF IN THE FACE. TO EVERYONE WHO IS STILL LAUGHING UNDER THEIR BREATHE AT FIDO RIGHT NOW, YOU’RE WELCOME. - SINCERELY, THE NOT SO DEEP SIDE OF HALI.
TODAY IS MY DAY OFF OF WORK . A FRIDAY. THE GOLD MINE. I HAVE THUS FAR COMPLETED A LONG, HEARTFELT LETTER TO MY PENPAL. I HAVE READ TWO MORE CHAPTERS FROM ANGELA’S ASHES. AND I HAVE JOURNALED FOR A SOLID 45 MINUTES. ALL WHILE SITTING AT A LONG STEEL TABLE IN THE BACK ROOM OF FIDO. THEY HAVE THE GARAGE WALL/WINDOW OPEN, AND THE COOL, FALL FRAGRANT AIR IS DANCING ACROSS MY SKIN. I AM SURE I HAVE SEEN, AT THE BARE MINIMUM, 50 DOGS AND THEIR OWNERS WALK PAST ME. YOUNG AND OLD HIPSTERS DONNING FLORAL/PLAID PRINTED CLOTHING THAT THEY BOUGHT AT UP-SCALE THRIFT SHOPS IN EAST NASHVILLE, WHEN THEY COULD HAVE GOTTEN THE SAME THING FOR 50 CENTS AT GOODWILL. PURE BEAUTY. THERE’S NO PLACE I’D RATHER BE AT THIS VERY MOMENT. - SINCERELY, THE APPRECIATIVE/CYNICAL HALI.
