SERIOUSLY.

I RECENTLY HAD A FRIEND ASK ME WHAT MY DESIRES WERE IN LIFE RIGHT NOW. MY FIRST THOUGHT WAS, "I HAVE NO IDEA..." I KNOW THAT I DESIRE TO GET TO PORTLAND NEXT YEAR,, AND I HAVE JUST ASSUMED THAT THIS TIME WAS BEING USED TO BUILD ME UP FOR THAT SEASON CHANGE. I HAVE NEVER REALLY STOPPED TO THINK OF THINGS I DESIRE FOR THE HERE AND NOW. I OF COURSE HAVE WORLDLY DESIRES, SUCH AS A RELATIONSHIP. OBVIOUSLY I WOULD DESIRE THAT NOW. SEEING AS IT'S THE CHILLY HOLIDAY SEASON, WHEN WE ALL WANT SOMEONE TO CURL UP NEXT TO, TO BRING HOME FOR THANKSGIVING AND CHRISTMAS, AND TO WALK WITH DOWN STREETS BLANKETED WITH LEAVES AND FROST. THIS DESIRE I WOULDN'T WANT TO BE A SHORT TERM ROMANCE; I WOULD HOPE IT WOULD CARRY ON TO ETERNITY. BUT, LOOKING PAST WORLDLY DESIRES, I WOULD SAY THAT MY SOUL LONGS FOR MORE PROPHETIC OPPORTUNITIES, FOR MORE BOLDNESS IN MY WALK. BECOMING MORE INTUITIVE TO OTHERS' NEEDS. LISTENING CLOSER TO CONVICTIONS, AND TO SAY "NO" EASILY, WHEN NEED BE. BUT THESE ARE ALL THINGS THAT I DESIRE TO HAVE AND GROW UPON FOREVER. I HONESTLY JUST DESIRE GOD TO DO WITH ME WHAT HE WILLS. I NEED TO BE LISTENING AND READY TO TAKE ACTION, OF COURSE. I DO THINK IT'S IMPORTANT TO HAVE DREAMS AND DESIRES, BUT I ALSO BELIEVE THAT THERE ARE TIMES WHEN GOD JUST WANTS US TO BE CLEARED AND VACANT - A BLANK CANVAS - WILLING TO ACCEPT WHAT HE GIVES US IN A MOMENT'S NOTICE. THAT IS WHERE I STAND NOW. COMPLETELY TRANSPARENT, PATIENT, AND WAITING. FILLED WITH JOY, PEACE, AND EAGERNESS TO ACCEPT WHAT MY FATHER POURS OVER ME. IT'S LIKE ANTICIPATING THE CONTENTS OF A MYSTERY GRAB BAG AT THE DOLLAR TREE... OR IN MY CASE, LIKE ANTICIPATING MY UNITING WITH JIMMY FALLON.