When I was in middle school (Which basically means, when I was at home in my pajamas working through two different grade books at once - Home schooled), I dreamed of growing up. I imagined myself being put together, and confident. I pictured myself being serious, and reserved. Excuse me, but I am none of those things. Well, I take that back - I have grown in my confidence significantly since my gaudy Hot Topics days. It's funny to me that I imagined a stern life to be one of fulfillment, when in reality, walking in the shoes of a faith filled child encompasses far greater wealth! Maybe my thought was this: "If my family life is so unstable, perhaps if I become stable, unmovable, and guarded, then I will be able to control things that, to me now, seem uncontrollable." How jaded. I am so thankful that God has taken me on an incredible journey this past year. A gypsy journey! In my previous blog I had mentioned that I was set and determined to be adventurous, to not sit on my couch and waste away the life that God has given me. If you have seen the pictures and posts that make up my crazy weekends, then you are probably assuming that I am just being care free and having the time of my life. Well, yes, I am - BUT I am learning so much about myself that I would never have discovered if I hadn't gotten off of my ass. It takes a multitude to show someone their true colors - it's easier to lie to one's self than to deceive a crowd. I have been shown that I am a very impatient person: When someone changes their outfit 10 times, when standing around and talking about nothing delays us getting home, and when there is a long line at the bar - IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD. That I can be quite judgmental: Just because someone is wearing an Ohio State shirt doesn't mean that they are a complete failure at life - Just a partial failure. That I can't always be in charge: I hate this realization. And that I really need to learn to trust: Especially my GPS. It's funny how God can bless us with so many opportunities to enjoy every moment of every day, but we become so blinded to the underlying lessons He is trying to teach us. Wake up sleepy heads! He is molding you into something beautiful, don't miss it!
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I didn't edit this before posting it, Mom. I will be expecting a few texts with corrections.
