last night we had a girls movie night and we watched the movie Leap Year. I had never seen it before, but basically this girl travels to scotland (ireland maybe?) to track down her long term boyfriends and propose to him on february 29th, cause his lazy butt couldn't conjure enough manhood to propose to her after four years. of course there is difficulty getting to him and a gorgeous scottish man helps her get to dublin and in two days they fall in love and in the end he proposes to her. (eyes bulge) TWO DAYS! phew. heck no.
so i started analyzing my emotions towards romance and towards relationships and here is what i came up with: i have only ever truly been pursued once, so i automatically assume that all guys just don't care and aren't men. it takes a heck of a lot to get me to open up romantically and start to truly fall for someone.
i have seen what i thought was a perfect family life, go down the drain in about 5 seconds one day when i found out my parents were getting divorced. my lack of trust in men already began to hit a whole new level.
having never really been pursued, and having to daily work on self confidence issues, it is hard for to see how a guy would want to be romantic towards me, or want to pursue me over another girl who is 30x in better shape than i am haha.
BUT... i have found that i can be somewhat of a romantic myself. i may not have hope for the males of the world, but somehow god put a lil love spell in me. i love to give gifts, and i love to make that person feel special. i want them to know how much i love everything they do for me. i love the thought of surprising them with things they have always wanted to do or see.
dang - im a confusing person. i am figuring this out as i am reading all of this. hahaha
anywho - my vow is that the next romantic movie i watch, i will oooh and ahhh and awww. and i will like it!
(smiles)
